This post is from a while back, but the message still applies to my life and I’m sure your lives as well. We are more than our Sensory Processing Disorder (SPD)!
This past week I have been wrestling with the thought, “Was I created with Sensory Processing Disorder on purpose, or was it an accident?”.
The question seemed to always be there, haunting my steps. Until some friends pointed out that I wasn’t questioning where my disability came from, I was questioning my value.
Am I more than my Sensory Processing Disorder?
Do I have worth outside of my SPD or is my worth dictated by SPD’s presence in my life?
Sometimes when you realize that you have a disability, you get so carried away with how it effects you. You start reading all the books you can get our hands on, and investigating every little thing. You can even become so carried away with your new discovery that you overwhelm your friends with information and facts that they really don’t need to hear.
Ultimately we loose sight of who we truly are.
So Who Am I?
I am a dreamer. Who loves to do things that shake, rattle and roll people’s worlds.
I am a leader. Planning events and leading people with projects makes me very happy.
Music is an intricate part of my heart. I feel more myself when I listen to good music (whether that is new music or old music that may date back to the 1950’s) and I love creating music more than anything!
I have a laugh that is very loud, but I had one friend of mine say that it lights up a room.
These are just some of the qualities that make up the person I am.
I am not trying to show off by printing these things, in fact it is hard for me to write good things about myself. Often, I tend to see all my faults instead of my qualities.
No, I am just trying to show you that there is more to me than just my SPD.
I am still me and you are still you.
I may have just discovered that I have Sensory Processing Disorder, and yes, I may do things a little differently than I did before, but that doesn’t change the fact that I am still me and it’s the same with you too. You have worth!
But we don’t just have worth because of our personality or ability.
I am a child of God and that gives me worth!
We are all intricately created and loved by God! My Sensory Processing Disorder is a tool in His hands. It is something He uses to shape my heart. He doesn’t love me just because I have SPD, but because I am me.
So, stop seeing yourself in the shadow of your disability. Yes, it is hard. It’s a battle. It may be a struggle to interact with people, and sometimes you may be overwhelmed with what you can’t be, or what you can’t do, but that doesn’t make you any less you.
You are precious. Not because I say so, but because God says so.
With or without SPD I am still me! Can you say the same?
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